I wanted to share my pop secret with you!

From this week's Post Secret

This secret could have been mine, except I never realized this is how I felt.  That's the magic of post secret.  Discovering your own secrets.  And now I've typed "secret" so many times it sounds weird.  secret secret i've got a secret.

Here's a secret:
I'm totally quitting my job this week.  I can't take it anymore.  In a nutshell, my ethics are out of sync with the ethics of my supervisors and boss, and I can't live with myself if I stay.  I've done everything I can to raise the ethical bar and ramp up animal welfare oversight without stepping on any toes, but it'll never be enough.  I've seen too much of the dark side and I'm terrified of retribution if I speak out anymore than I have.  I took a leap of faith in airing some grievances I have about animal welfare and I was shot down.  Hard.  So time to do something else. 

Honestly I would rather go feed the sea lions for 10 dollars/hour part time and go to school.  I feel like it's time I have a job that I don't cry on my way to or on my way from.  Sometimes I cry both ways but usually its just one or the other.  People on my bus line have to recognize me as that girl who cries.  It happens so much. I cry every god damn day.  Every god damn day. 

Comments

[Nancy]

I am so sorry. I'm glad you're doing what feels right for you. I wish you luck in finding a good job that you can live with. No job should make you cry.

[Susannah]

Just the other day I was thinking about you (sounds creepy but it's not). I was thinking that yours is the one job that might not be affected by this shit economy. Strange to see this post now.

Even though I am occupationally jealous that you get a paycheck and that I think it's secure (but what do I know), I say go for it. Feed the sea lions and your soul. Nothing is worth all those tears, especially asshole bosses without any morals.

Good luck!

[corine]

You go girl.

[Rhiannon]

I can totally relate. I'm envious that you have the balls to quit. I wish you all the best.

And by the way, your blog is one of the things that cheers me up after crying on the bus.

[Caroline]

been there (daily crying). you will find a better situation.

easier said than done, but try to find something that uses your writing abilities. you're damn good at it.

[melanie]

Hey, I don't know how I missed this post but good on you. I did the same thing almost a year and a half ago and I have no regrets. It was scary as hell at first but I'm still living.

[Renate]

No job is worth crying over daily. Feeding the sealions and going to school sounds so much better. Life shouldn't be miserable so get rid of as many things that make it that way. Money isn't everything.

PS: I am speaking from experience... glad you joined the club - I quit my job a few months ago, too. Time to finish my degree.

[pve design]

I keep a journal, an old fashioned one, that you write and draw in and I often love looking back and am thankful for those tears I shed now make me smile. Change is good. Follow the passion, of what you love, what makes you happy. Wishing you all the best and a nice soft tissue, or cotton handkerchief.

[vicki archer]

Go for it. You won't know how bad you really felt until you quit and you don't realize how good you are going to feel after you leave. Dry those tears, the worst is over. xv

[hello gorgeous]

Wow. No job is worth that.

Good for you.

(Maybe a covert phone call to PETA wouldn't hurt.)

[lisa & Alfie at The Pickled Hutch]

Hey Leslie,
You certainly can't feel worse than you do now. The only way up is out in your case. It made me sad to hear about you crying. I have been there. And once gone, never looked back. Courage girl. They don't deserve you.
Lisa & Alfie

[jen]

I'm relatively broke and in school and happier than I've ever been! I never cried at my old office job, but it was eating away at my soul. Go feed the sealions with abandon! I think you might look back at this period in your life and think, "what was stopping me??" Bon chance!

[dark heat]

This is amazing! Congratulations Leslie. I floral design now versus my last job sequencing biological weaponry for the government (shit you not). Welcome to the "Seal-feeding" team! Viva a non-crushed-soul!
(hug)